Wednesday, July 19th, 2017
Hey guys! I’m sorry I’ve been MIA for the last few months. Things have been pretty crazy. For one, I graduated college, then travelled Australia and New Zealand. I’ve really missed blogging, but had to take a break from it due to everything going on. I’ve taken some time to get back in touch with myself and well, here I am at 11:00 p.m. on a Tuesday night blabbing away on a word document. It’s strange, I find the most inspiration during times in my life that are full of confusion, complication, and uncertainty. It’s probably because there’s just so much going on in my mind—seriously guys it doesn’t stop lol.
Naturally, as humans we settle and find comfort in what’s familiar. If change is placed in our lives it can seem threatening to our happiness. But what we’re truly afraid to lose is the safety of the walls that confine us to our comfort zone. Trust me I’ve been there, certainty is a nice little sheltered place to stay…but only for a little while. Sometimes change smacks you right in the face so that you can gain awareness. Whether that message is positive or negative is for you to decide. The most important thing is that you learn from it and grow closer and more in touch with yourself. I had a lot of life changing experiences lately, one being that I am completely done with school. WOOOOOO YEAH! Well, that’s how I initially felt when I graduated. But looking back, I wouldn’t have changed a second of rushing to class and hitting stuff on King Street, staying up all night freaking out over presentations, meeting some of my best friends, sleepless nights laying in bed thinking about the future, times of pain and realization, lots of long runs around campus, blistering cold nights, trying to juggle every responsibility possible, and most of all learning to embrace change. The past four years made me strong and helped me prove to myself that I can do whatever I want as long as I put my mind to it. It’s all because I was pushed out of my comfort zone.
Sometimes change is easily embraced, a new place, a new workout plan, a new job, etc. But other times it can be scary and painful. When I started college, I thought happiness meant that you had to feel joy 24/7. I quickly learned that life wasn’t that easy and that there will always be ups and downs. I don’t think I really accepted that until I travelled again. I was thrown into a huge group of strangers and got to know everyone over a time span of 21 days. For a lot of the time I had my own problems on my mind. What job was I going to get when I got home, where was I going to live, I missed my family and friends, I hoped Knight and Magoo remembered me…blah, blah, blah. But then I started to listen around and realized that everyone else had little problems on their minds too. The lives of others can seem so perfect and easy from the outside looking in, but once you take a moment to live in someone else’s shoes you’ll realize that you’re not alone. Change and uncertainty are usually just as scary to everyone else.
So yes, I’ve changed my definition of happiness a little in the past four years. I now believe that happiness means finding joy in the little things, being in the present and appreciating the company of those around you, having confidence to be your silly weird self, setting goals and reaching them, and lastly, having the ability to embrace change. With those few bullet points in the back of your mind, life may not always be easy, but it will be fulfilling. I’ve got a lot to work on and I’m far from perfect but I will continue to work towards that inner peace each and every day. When one door closes, another one opens and life can show you a path that doesn’t have an end in sight, but that’s all part of the journey. Enjoy the laughter, confusion, debacle, friendship, love, and pain that life throws at you and chase what sets your soul on fire. On that note, it’s safe to say I’m ready to embrace change so…………I’m throwing out my mittens and moving to Florida! I’m so excited for things to come, I’ll keep you guys updated, and I’ll see you in the Sunshine State….. I love you all and thanks so much for stopping by and staying supportive. As always, stay delightful!!